Past to Present

She’s down holding her knees, eyes are heavy, her heart is broken can’t keep her life steady, struggling and suffering from her past relationship.

"Why Lord”? As the tears rides down her cheeks, am I not ready? Why do they never last? Do you hate me ? Why does everything always go wrong in my life ?

screaming and moaning poor child has been cheated on by the one she called her number  one.

The thought of existence became very bitter to her she would rather count the days  to her death than to live again Her relationship  with  God was crashing slowly,  she couldn’t understand why God would allow those stuff to go by without a reply.

She was totally broken, all the time and effort that was put into the relationship turned into moaning.

All crushed up on the inside  she really don’t know what to decide,  low appetite has her pushing her food to the side it has even affected her lifestyle that for days she would just fake a smile.

Judgmental thoughts clouded her mind she could not dare look upon another guy because to her they were all the same kind.

She went from offensive to defensive so her heart won’t be broken at least next time love would have to be proven than just happy thoughts and the butterfly feelings.

Priorities were about to be set straight and boundaries were about to be made like heaven’s gate, the heart break didn't just killed her but rebuilt her.

Pondering on her past made her even more passionate because with every mistake there  was a lesson to take at least she now knows when someone would come fake.

This time she decided to wait go head strong with her new found spiritual faith and   don’t go rushing into a relationship because of her lonely state.

Instead she learned to love herself before she can really put herself out there to love someone and when guys came running at her heart she would  refuse them because this time she knows what she is looking for and what she really  wants.